11.06.05 - 1:25 p.m.

I was sitting here thinking and an enormous gap in my understanding yawned in the ground in front of me, like I was looking down at the track beneath a train and suddenly saw the void between 2 cars flash by like a deep, traveling hole in the ground. For a split second I saw all the old, good things about me piled inside the hole like rusted car parts. Then the hole rushed away someplace else. I want to wrap myself in my own cobwebs and go back.

I'm homesick for the first time ever and have no elbow room, and no time to move or sleep enough to dream. I know exactly how to save myself, but the strongest gale-force winds of education are preventing me. The rain makes them smell like death. There's not enough room in the air to cry.

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