05.10.06 - 9:56 p.m.

With the decision to pick up a job application tomorrow a lot has changed. One cog has clamped down on another down in the core of the earth where the little banner of my life unfurls. Up here I've sort of been floating along in a post-apocalyptic life raft. Now that I'm sure I'm going to be okay, though, it's time to stop drifting and fully apply myself to the Summer o' V8 and Tool.

It's not like I've been on a 3-week bender like some recent graduates I know, but there was a lot of sleep to be stolen back, a lot of winter heartbreak to be aired out of my pockets, a lot of being alone, a few people to surprise with the first reminder of me in months, a lot of moving, and a lot of airplane adventure story to be read down on the carpet (I have pink elbow-burns now) to put it all back in context.

So, I'm scheduling liftoff from this in-between malaise for tomorrow morning, and trying to get together a packing list. So far I'm taking...

1. one duck mug
2. "art never sleeps"
3. v8
4. previous commitments to "never stop"
5. sunscreen
6. my swollen heart

see< >saw

i whisper hello to everything