05.26.06 - 12:20 p.m.

I've been feeling too confused to make anything good happen here. Which makes me even more confused. SO, I went out and found the Cucumber Melon lotion I used during my summer in New York City 3 years ago. This tang floating around my head now is like a carousel, sending into rotation images of Ann's hair blowing in the subway, sidewalk barbeques in Harlem, flopping exhausted onto my bed after a day of dance, rain mixed with peach juice streaming down my hands, and the population of a town piling up on a streetcorner until the light changes or the pedestrian flood breaks, whichever happens first. Those were the good days.... when the American dream of refunding my ticket home, getting a job, and carving out a life from that solid woodwork of NYC humanity was not a bad idea at all.

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